Lost Childhood

I can't help but think that Aidan has lost the chance to have a normal childhood. Will he even remember any of his childhood? Will it have been exciting and fun? Will it have been painful and frustrating? I have a hard time internalizing that he will have a new kind of normal for his childhood experience. Although he seems happy and content, I am not. I cannot stop thinking of all the things he should be doing. The worst part is that I don't even know if he is understanding anything that goes on around him. Just what does he remember? Being non-verbal, I may never know. It's a hard pill to swallow, but I need to try and move on. Easier said than done, unfortunately.